I have wondered for a while if what I do is not classified this way. I'm talking about accidental-on-purpose, or as one put it, 'deliberate-accident'.
I like to think this is what I do, although I do admit there is a deliberate side to it. You see, when I am in just the right mood (sometimes hard to get there), I will tank up. That means just what it is intended to say - I drink as much as I can in the two hours before bed time (that's the time it takes me to get pretty desperate after I begin drinking in earnest).
But once in bed, I tell myself I dont really want to wet the bed, thereby forcing myself to hold it as long as I can. (Incidently, did anyone ever notice that you can hold lots longer when you are lying down?) Anyway, it is only when I cannot hold it any longer, even with my hand jammed hard into my crotch, that I begin to dribble, and finally have to let go. Is that not what happens when it is accidental?
I like to think this is what I do, although I do admit there is a deliberate side to it. You see, when I am in just the right mood (sometimes hard to get there), I will tank up. That means just what it is intended to say - I drink as much as I can in the two hours before bed time (that's the time it takes me to get pretty desperate after I begin drinking in earnest).
But once in bed, I tell myself I dont really want to wet the bed, thereby forcing myself to hold it as long as I can. (Incidently, did anyone ever notice that you can hold lots longer when you are lying down?) Anyway, it is only when I cannot hold it any longer, even with my hand jammed hard into my crotch, that I begin to dribble, and finally have to let go. Is that not what happens when it is accidental?
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